Yes, I am a girl with a dusky complexion, heavy body, short height and pathetic looking hair. I nowhere fit in the definition of beautiful.
Constantly trying to get the colour of my lipstick right...I guess red suits me well but equally, does pink or orange? When these girls have a conversation about the colour of the lipstick and nail polishes I'm phased out. I don't understand. Blue or black or green, what difference does it make?
Yes, I do wear earrings once every two months I guess. Why is it necessary anyway? Hoops or studs or whatever. And yes, why can't I go out with shoes that don't match my dress? I own just a pair. So they should go with everything I wear. Why can't they?
I've had this conversation with myself every time I look into the mirror, should I go for a half pony? Na just normal pony will do. No, it isn't looking that nice, maybe I should drop them open? No, I should half Clutch them. Hmmm? I don't know. And these pimples...I'll be 50 and I'll still have pimples. The skin of the boys in my class is far better than mine.
I strive to look as beautiful as other girls in the college. But why do I try? I like wearing that old t-shirt with a panda print and those track pants I look like an elephant in. Ok, I stopped wearing them because everyone else wore a crop top and skinny jeans.
I am supposed to look desirable, truth is I'm not. I won't ever understand the definition of desirable as a matter of fact. And when all the eyes move in the direction of that girl entering the class, I lose my confidence. Guys don't know I exist. I am the most boring person as per your judgement but I'm the most fascinating someone you'll ever meet.
Even after losing my originality and dressing as per the vogue I am not equipped with confidence. So does all these go in vain? Yes for me maybe not for you. So I have started a new practice I wear what I want and look in the mirror and scream to myself that I'm beautiful. Yeah, I am not. Not to you but to me. And now when those eyes move in the direction of that gorgeous girl entering the classroom, I couldn't care less.
Thank you!
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Constantly trying to get the colour of my lipstick right...I guess red suits me well but equally, does pink or orange? When these girls have a conversation about the colour of the lipstick and nail polishes I'm phased out. I don't understand. Blue or black or green, what difference does it make?
Yes, I do wear earrings once every two months I guess. Why is it necessary anyway? Hoops or studs or whatever. And yes, why can't I go out with shoes that don't match my dress? I own just a pair. So they should go with everything I wear. Why can't they?
I've had this conversation with myself every time I look into the mirror, should I go for a half pony? Na just normal pony will do. No, it isn't looking that nice, maybe I should drop them open? No, I should half Clutch them. Hmmm? I don't know. And these pimples...I'll be 50 and I'll still have pimples. The skin of the boys in my class is far better than mine.
I strive to look as beautiful as other girls in the college. But why do I try? I like wearing that old t-shirt with a panda print and those track pants I look like an elephant in. Ok, I stopped wearing them because everyone else wore a crop top and skinny jeans.
I am supposed to look desirable, truth is I'm not. I won't ever understand the definition of desirable as a matter of fact. And when all the eyes move in the direction of that girl entering the class, I lose my confidence. Guys don't know I exist. I am the most boring person as per your judgement but I'm the most fascinating someone you'll ever meet.
Even after losing my originality and dressing as per the vogue I am not equipped with confidence. So does all these go in vain? Yes for me maybe not for you. So I have started a new practice I wear what I want and look in the mirror and scream to myself that I'm beautiful. Yeah, I am not. Not to you but to me. And now when those eyes move in the direction of that gorgeous girl entering the classroom, I couldn't care less.
Thank you!
Got Time? Read my last blog.
Who Is It?
Super real it felt! Great work junior!💯
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DeleteThis was sooo goood
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DeleteHi Deeksha, one has to stop operating from the inability context and should shift mind exploring inner abilities. Way to Go!! Best Wishes💐💐
ReplyDeleteSo True fufaji, Thank you 🙂
DeleteHi Deeksha, I am the girl who would enter the room and get all the attention. I can tell that's not fun at all. I want to live without those staring eyes on me all the time. Enjoy your existence here on the earth. Confidence has nothing to do about your looks. Outer looks can be changed if you want to. However I understand your feelings as society impose so much on us about beauty that we forget that real beauty is how you live your life, how you represent yourself and how well you can get along with others & your surroundings. I wish you all the happiness in the world.
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Hey, thank you so much. I wanted to get this message out.. Thanks... We try to look so different on the outside, when actual beauty is how we really are. Lots of love ❤️
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