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Who is it?

I've been on the phone
But it wasn't me
I've heard my ego get louder than self-respect
Yesterday while talking,
I slammed the phone
Saying I won't be there for you any more
No, I didn't say it - I meant to
And today I want to go back but I also don't want to

No, they weren't wrong
They haven't ever been
Yes, of course, I was hurt
I've been on the phone
But it wasn't me
It was my ego
It costed my most beautiful relationships

These people were hard to find
 I know and I won't find them again
If I ever did, things won't be same again
I'll regret it over and over
And It'll hurt with simple mention

I've heard my ego get louder than self-respect
Question is the thin line between self-respect and ego
How many relations will it cost
Until the time I learn?

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