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Hi Mom!

Hi mom,
I'm sorry and I'm thankful

I'm sorry
I'm sorry for being me
I'm sorry for not listening
I'm sorry for being rude
I'm sorry that you have to wake up at 5 just to iron my uniform and pack my lunch
I'm sorry that I was never around when you wanted me to be
I'm sorry for letting you cry by yourself
I'm sorry for not talking
I'm sorry for not sharing the pain you had, the thoughts you had
I'm sorry for being selfish
I'm sorry for not letting you sleep an hour more
I'm sorry for letting you work until your back hurt
I'm sorry that I never asked if you were sick
I'm sorry that I don't know how many times you have slept hungry
I'm sorry that I wasn't the child you wanted me to be
I'm sorry that it took me so long to understand

I'm thankful
I'm thankful for you being you
I'm thankful for you staying by my side
I'm thankful for you being selfless
I'm thankful that I had you

I am more apologetic than I am grateful.
I don't know what more to be thankful about since your whole life was dedicated to us.

I'm sorry that I wanted to be your wings but ended up being your chains,
I'm thankful that you gave me wings.

Even though it's hard, I will achieve what I promised, no matter what.

Your efforts won't be wasted.
 I'll make you proud, I promise.

Thank you
Love


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